These past weeks or so has been difficult for me. So many things have happened and it has left me in need of a change. Let’s start at the beginning… I’ve always prided myself in being able to get things done. To be where I need to be, do what I need to do. And until recently I’ve never really questioned it. I mean isn’t the goal to make a difference? To use our time wisely and be productive? To get things done? Well, if you asked me this even 6 months ago my answer would have been yes. But now, it’s all changed.
This change has been coming for a while, I just didn’t really see it clearly until now. The signs have all been there;
- The tired body and mind
- The struggles with digestion
- The inflammation in the body
- The overwhelm and frustration
Even a few of my closest friends were trying to give me a hint here and there, and yet I didn’t see it. And then like a wave I saw it all at once! What I always get a good giggle at is that once you see something you see it EVERYWHERE.
The difference is mine to make
When I first started to really see how much I put on my own plate it was during a group coaching session. A member of my group said something that really had me looking at myself differently. It was actually through his view that things opened up for me. So, I began trying on what he had offered. It didn’t take more than a few minutes to see he was on to something big. Then I started looking in other places in my life, and again he was on to something. The more I looked the more clearly I saw. I was taking on way too much, and I had it all as priority one.
And then it hit me! I can change anything I want whenever I want!
The first step was by far the hardest. I had to take 100% responsibility for what I had created. Everything on my plate I had put there. Yes, people asked for things, and only I could say yes. Sure I had offered support when people were in need, and others could have supported them just as much. Yes, I was loving all that I was doing, and I had lost that love when it became too much.
So I had to get really honest, get back in integrity and have some tough conversations. First, with myself, what did I really want to be doing, and WHY did I keep putting other things in the way? How was I self-sabotaging what I wanted to be doing? Then, I had to have real authentic conversations with the people in my life to get the impact I was having on them. And I had to wipe the plate clean and design something new.
The rest, as they say, is history
I certainly won’t say I’ve figured it all out, or even solved it permanently. This I am sure is going to be a daily fought battle. And I’m ready to win it! But here is what I have learned.
- Everyone sees through the masks we put on, and they are holding space for us to take them off!
- Support has always been there, you just have to be open to listening. Allow the amazing people in your life to contribute to you.
- We live in what we create, and as the creator, we can change direction in a breath