To do it all, or not to

To do it all or not to

These past weeks or so has been difficult for me. So many things have happened and it has left me in need of a change. Let’s start at the beginning… I’ve always prided myself in being able to get things done. To be where I need to be, do what I need to do. And until recently I’ve never really questioned it. I mean isn’t the goal to make a difference? To use our time wisely and be productive? To get things done? Well, if you asked me this even 6 months ago my answer would have been yes. But now, it’s all changed.

This change has been coming for a while, I just didn’t really see it clearly until now. The signs have all been there;

  • The tired body and mind
  • The struggles with digestion
  • The inflammation in the body
  • The overwhelm and frustration

Even a few of my closest friends were trying to give me a hint here and there, and yet I didn’t see it. And then like a wave I saw it all at once! What I always get a good giggle at is that once you see something you see it EVERYWHERE.

The difference is mine to make

When I first started to really see how much I put on my own plate it was during a group coaching session. A member of my group said something that really had me looking at myself differently. It was actually through his view that things opened up for me. So, I began trying on what he had offered. It didn’t take more than a few minutes to see he was on to something big. Then I started looking in other places in my life, and again he was on to something. The more I looked the more clearly I saw. I was taking on way too much, and I had it all as priority one.

And then it hit me! I can change anything I want whenever I want!

Taking responsibility

The first step was by far the hardest. I had to take 100% responsibility for what I had created. Everything on my plate I had put there. Yes, people asked for things, and only I could say yes. Sure I had offered support when people were in need, and others could have supported them just as much. Yes, I was loving all that I was doing, and I had lost that love when it became too much.

So I had to get really honest, get back in integrity and have some tough conversations. First, with myself, what did I really want to be doing, and WHY did I keep putting other things in the way? How was I self-sabotaging what I wanted to be doing? Then, I had to have real authentic conversations with the people in my life to get the impact I was having on them. And I had to wipe the plate clean and design something new.

The rest, as they say, is history

I certainly won’t say I’ve figured it all out, or even solved it permanently. This I am sure is going to be a daily fought battle. And I’m ready to win it! But here is what I have learned.

  • Everyone sees through the masks we put on, and they are holding space for us to take them off!
  • Support has always been there, you just have to be open to listening. Allow the amazing people in your life to contribute to you.
  • We live in what we create, and as the creator, we can change direction in a breath

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