Sometimes I feel like life just knocks me down with a Rocky sized punch. You know those days when things go wrong in a way that reminds us of just how human we are. And that being human means I have needs to be met, and if I don’t meet them I’ll crash. Today I had that kind of reminder! Over the past few weeks, I have been silently suffering from pain with my digestion. Therefore, I don’t feel I’m at my best. I feel tired, achy, easily agitated, and to be honest a bit scared. It’s like that poem when things go wrong as they sometimes will, and your daily road seems all uphill. This has defined how my physical body has been feeling. Today after a crazy breakthrough in what is happening, I found myself reflecting on how I got here.
Disconnecting from my inner wisdom
What’s so is that over the past few months I have been listening to the wisdom of “experts”. For me, this came in the form of eating foods recommended to make my digestion stronger. What was really happening was that even with the knowledge in front of them, they had recommended something that is essentially like a toxin in my body. It’s a mistake, and I don’t want to dwell on their actions. Rather what I found for me in this experience.
After figuring this out with a trusted advisor and doctor, here is what I was able to see. I didn’t question the advice! I didn’t look for myself, I simply trusted them as “more knowledgeable than me”. Blindly following their advice and not looking back. Until today!
Over the past 3.5 months, this food has slowly been adding inflammation, discomfort, lowering my energy, and much more. And I didn’t do anything about it until my body literally had a hissy fit. All along the signs were there, and I wasn’t listening.
Discounting my own experience
I am always surprised at how easily I make myself wrong and never look outside of me for the problem. I feel a bit like my body had to smack me over the head with a 2×4 to get my attention. All this discomfort, because I didn’t trust myself to be smarter than the “experts” when it comes to my own body. When really it has nothing to do with them. It has to do with my own lack of confidence and faith in my inner wisdom.
Creating something newly for me
So what have I learned? Honestly, it may sound a bit corny, and I don’t care. I learned to trust myself. To remember that things go wrong, and I can re-write the future by simply making a small adjustment. It all starts with trusting how I feel, acknowledging that my body is communicating the truth, recognize my experience and invite curiosity. To get that my body is this incredibly unique gift, that can communicate clearly and effectively if only I have the courage to listen. If only I have the awareness to challenge my first thoughts and my inner doubts.
This is me declaring to myself and all who believe in me that I choose to listen. I choose to have self-compassion, self-love, and most of all to trust that everything I need to know is already within me. This belief of inner strength is a big part of our business, it is the core of how we see our clients. So when I say I am creating it newly, that is a reflection of how we all need this reminder, including me!